Well, I got smacked!!

Ok Phil, I'll come up with something to post here, though it may be short. School is going well a month into the winter term. I got a 94% on my midterm of my architectural class. Oh, ok...I got it.

I had a conversation with some people at my church Sunday night after the Super Bowl. We are going through the life of Paul on Sunday mornings, then re-hashing the sermon that evening. It was a little different with the Super Bowl that day, but out here on the west coast the game was over early enough to get it in anyhow. At any rate, God hit me with what may be my greatest weakness in life. It was definitely a hard moment, and hopefully will be turning point in my life. God smacked me in the face with one word: ENTITLEMENT. He brought to my rememberance a guy named Mark Williams who is a state oversser in my denomination. At any rate, he has the Bible memorized cover to cover - chapter and verse. God spoke to me that there is no way you can accomplish that AND feel entitled to anything. So many times I come home from work and crash in front of the television. I may only intend to sit there for a few minutes - maybe through a Sportscenter, but it rarely works out that way. I may see something else on that I want to watch, or I may go from the TV to the computer. At any rate, I never end up doing the things I should be doing. I have conditioned myself to believe that I am allowed to veg for a while because, after all, I have worked hard all day, and I deserve it. Entitlement never got anything - except in the way. Only God is truly entitled to anything. He deserves my praise, my worship, my time and my devotion. He is the only one worthy of any of it. I am praying that God takes those feelings of entitlement away, and that I will hand over the title to my soul more completely every day.